Tersangkut

Tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti
Engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari
Oh Tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
Aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia 

And what do you do when the one who means the most to you
is the one who didn't show?

And I know it's long gone
And that magic's not here no more
And it might be okay 
But I'm not fine at all 

And maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 
till you tore it all up

Cause every night I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hope you on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
Who sits alone talking to the moon

I know you asked me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunset in your eyes

Feel the fire cause it's all around
And it's burning for forever and always
We gotta let it go the other way
And look for another day cause it ain't the same 
Watching all falling to the ground 
No happy ever after 
Just disaster 

All this fairy tales are full of shtt
One more stupid love song I'll be sick

And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now

So then,

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
is to hold him when I'm no longer around
When he won't be needing me anymore 
We all need the person who can be true to you
And now I'm leaving when he surrender 
How I wish I can stay
Cause I'm giving up
And I'm tired of hoping for unknown 
Now no more 

Cakaplah aku gila, tak betul, lifeless.

Takpe.

Memang aku cuba untuk putus asa dengan hal yang satu ni.

Thanks and massive apology.

sorry A7X saya gubah lagu awak.

okebai~~ 

Obviously

assalamualaikum...

hey. apa buat. ada baik.? aku, okeyy je. just bz gilaaa this end of sem. yela lepas test 2 habis je memang kompom busy gila dengan segala assignment, report, presentation bla bla bla.. but hey, aku still tak lupa nak pikir pasal satu perkara yang aku rasa takkan ada ending, apatah lagi ending yang baik.

masa tu aku pernah terbaca tweet Jo pasal sorang budak yg aku tak tau sapa. dia tweet "dia dah keluar grup batch rupanya" something like that. and ada orang fav ke retweet gtu, which is Fared. so nye au pk mestila budak Saga jugak kann. so aku tye lah Jo "sapa dol?" dia kata carik la sendiri. Fared pon kata gtu. masa tu aku malas lah sebab wehh ingat aku tade keje laen ke nak stalk orang satu batch nan aku. haha. aku buat taktau je la.

until that night i am missing everyone. everybody that ever been important in my whole life before. aku call E'a, aku text Iela. and i'm telling on my tweet. and last thing i did before went to bed was texting him the thing that i used to before, before i really do give up. aku kuat mengatakan dalam hati yang aku tak harap pon dia reply, tapi sebenarnya aku bukan kuat mengatakan tapi kuat menipu hati aku. i really do want him reply that text. tapi aku redha. memang lepas lepas tu rasa buduuuul sangat buat cantu. i shouldn't for the sake of myself. selfish enough.?

then lately aku baca tweet awek dia, berbaur.. entahlah. aku tak tahu lah ex yang dia maksudkan tu memang him atau someone else yang memang ex dia yang takde kene mengena dengan aku atau jiran nenek aku. tapi ntah aku rasa macam betul apa yang aku rasa, which those tweets memang ada kene mengena dengan apa yang jadi. aku stalk his fb. all i got is nothing. aku tak jumpa pon fb dia.! what a big surprise. and aku try lagi, maybe aku salah taip nama sebab nama fb dia aneh aneh sikit. aku pergi wall someone yang we both friend. aku carik mutual friends, still tak dapat. aku tak tahu lah kalau dia dah deactivate fb dia, which mengiyakan kebenaran dia leave group batch tu kan. and then, aku try caik twitter dia earlier, yang tu agi awal2 dia dah deactivate sebab dia pernah kata dia try2 je buat bende alah tu.

skang aku taktahu apa kebenaran dia. dia dah mati ke.? *nauzubillah* jangan lah. aku ada banyak benda tak selesai lagi nan dia. sumpah aku kata aku tak ada apa apa perasaan langsung kat dia, selain kecewa je sekarang ni. kecewa sebab langsung tak pernah berusaha nak pertahankan friendship ni. aku patut anggap segaa apa yang dia pernah kata kat aku selama ni cuma kata-kkata budak umur 15 tahun yang tak matang lagi. tu je patutnya. 

okebai~~