Not that I am one. Actually, I am now. God this is awkward. I've finished. Yea yea the full results hasn't come out yet but point is my life is started to feel pointless bcs I really have no idea what to do everyday right after I've finished. I have no idea how these people made it, still hasn't started working or whatever. I'm only three weeks off my degree life and I've started dying/rotting already. These people had it since what, before Aidilfitri? Holy God. But whatever.
Change.
It's a tiny/short word with huge meaning. I don't know where to start. Because knowing me, I'm not good at taking things one at a time. I feel like I need to do everything, change every bits of myself. I mean, yea I have to, but it takes time, and space, and patience. And I'm known for not having the last part of that.
Honestly, I'm so scared of what is yet to come. I mean, I know I can't control everything and how they turnt out to be, but it worries me that what if I can't take it? What if I regret taking that path, bcs it will all have been too late. Tbh idk what I want.
So yeah. Adulthood is scary. But what's scarier is that what if you had a better choice, but all you did was choosing all the wrong ones.
Dear God I'm doomed.
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