S.O.S

Ahah.

Hey
Long time no post.

It was nothing. Nothing it was.
Actually there is something. I, err.

I got myself thinking. It was not a big deal actually.
But it is when it comes to surviving life.

I have this wall. A big, high, unbroken wall in front of me. Well, pretty much at my back as well, my left and my right. Probably above me.

My wall.. it's just so high. I can't, I just can't let anyone in. I'm so afraid, I got paranoid, that if I EVER let anyone in, they could simply left me hanging alone.

I just can't.. let that happen.

And the worst is, I couldn't let myself out of the wall I built myself.

I'm not joking.
I'm not.

Help. Me.