sakit mata

oke memang aq sakit mate...bukan saket matee yg merah mata pastu ada taik mata pastu mata melekat masa bangun tido tu..

tapi sakit mata nak tengok drama sebabak dua babak tiga babak dalam realiti life inii..ade sesetengah tu memang sala aq sebab saje carik pasal nak get involve dalam life..

oke aq nak nyelit : dalam upu aq mintak tesl so aq kene pakai real english or just malay..

bhahaha..

so then i tried so really damn hard to forget the damn thing..and what i've got is all pain..all tortures..i remembered every single person that ever made me cry..and for that i cried all over again..

first : i remembered my old friend, by listening to 'the one that got away', i did sing along, and i did cry along..just the thought of remembering him made me hate myself...cause for ever trust and be friend so close with a person like him..its not that i don't grateful for the time he spent and shared with me.. its just so hard to forgive myself that i ever made him someone special to me.. as he never did, do or does the same towards me...

and the second damn thing is : when i first get work here, i realize that i might be fall for someone..but i did ignore those feeling cause i know that wasn't a right thing to be done... back then, i ever fall for a wrong person..but yet i thought that he wasn't the one.. i admit it and i accepted it... and i thought that he might be just a brother to me..who knows that i fall for another.. 

i never want this to happen this way.. never be..and he has gone, i thought for a while... that i might take the time to forget him.. cause knowing too much bout him made my heart bleed a lot..made my tears drop a lot... but i just hoping.. the reality is..

he came over to my workplace.. to continue his work.. here.. as before.. for the first place i do upset when he wanted to quit.. but know i do hate it.. hate to see his face... i don't know.. it happens all the time.. when i fall for someone, someday i'll hate them cause they can't even see how i care about them...

and know i regret all over again because of what i've done..it damn hurt but people may have say that it is the consequence of trouble that i take it along with me..just like people said ;

don't trouble trouble until trouble troubles you :))

so never ever gonna trouble trouble, and disaster too~

and let me have all the strength to face this world till i've been strong enough...

amin~